mass

i spent the weekend hanging out with celeste, and i even went to mass with her. it's been interesting that in my research and study of eschatology, there has been a lot of negative feedback about the catholic church, such as the pope being the antichrist (or his assistant). naturally, as i sat through mass, i was very wary of my environment and looked around the cathedral for satanic or anti-christian icons. i know this sounds absurd and out of line. and then i looked around at the people in the pews, mindlessly reciting the prayers and the responses to the priest. i wondered how many people in the entire building were actually saved, and i wondered how many of these people attended mass only to be considered "good" catholics. i felt so bad for the people because (even though i didn't know for sure), it seemed like they didn't really know Jesus or have a relationship with Him.

it was interesting that the message was about evangelism though. and not to be looking down or judging catholics or anything, but i have never met an evangelistic catholic. but it reminds me of how many times we hear sermons and often forget about them immediately. the weekdays following a sermon about loving our enemies, we often hurt our best friends. or the day after a message about forgiveness, we hold a grudge against someone who has hurt us. we are often too quick to forget what we just heard. as humans, we sin so easily, and do not even recognize or realize that it's sin. we even often forget that our purpose in life is to worship God. our rebellion against Him through sin reveals our forgetfulness.

something else interesting that i never experienced before was as the priest was listing prayer requests, the congregation responded with "Lord, hear our hurt". as i heard this repeated after every request, it really sank in. i thought of how hurt people really are. people long for love so badly and seek all these earthly ways to try to fill the void that only God can fill. they seek love in all the wrong places, and i, myself, am guilty of this too. i think we all are. this is why we need God. only His love is enough for us; there is nothing else on this earth that can satisfy our spiritual thirst like His love.

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